Monday, May 04, 2009

Update...er Downdate

I'm not getting very much sleep. When I am sleeping, I'm not really sleeping.

I can't stop eating. I've gained control the last two days but I've also gained ten pounds in the last two weeks.

I wish I didn't know so much about you. I'd rather be left in the dark. Ignorance is bliss; it's true. I know so much, in fact, that I don't even know you anymore.

When looking at the history of people who visit my blog, someone keeps checking my site for the Erie Idol winner. In case you were wondering and don't know already, I did alright but was soooooo very nervous and unprepared. I didn't get too many final pictures that night because it was such close quarters and I felt dumb for taking pictures. I made Kim do it! HAHAHA But I will post some when I get them uploaded. The top 5 out of the top 20 that night moved on to the second round. I didn't make it to top 5. Someone who sang the same song as I did (Total Eclipse Of The Heart) made it to top 5 because she came with her own disc, practiced more and sounded better and deserved it, simple as that. The woman that won Erie Idol was totally deserving and sounded just like Melissa Etheridge though I hadn't heard her perform an Etheridge song. It was a great night with so much talent. I was happy to learn I was one of only 2 or 3 other rookies. The rest of the finalists had competed in Erie Idol at least once before. Some of the top 20 had been in it 3 other times!!! I will not be competing next year. It's hard to find a babysitter when almost everyone you know wants to come out and root you on. Although, I'm so glad I did it. I still can't believe I made it that far. I was seriously surprised every time they called my number and wasn't surprised at all when they didn't. Congrats again to all the finalists! You felt like an extended family.

Damn I'm broke. All of the sudden I noticed it. I used to have such a nice cushion but my spending has been bad lately. I buy a lot of shit... like Starbucks and 8 dollar martinis, 4 bathing suits for Britain and dinner for the whole fam because we have no groceries and/or I get home too late to cook something. My credit cards are the highest they've ever been. It all started with my car. I guess I probably should have waited to buy a gas guzzling SUV that costs me a paycheck every month.

I wish I saw Kristen more. Hell, I wish I spoke to or emailed her more. If it weren't for YouTube, I wouldn't even remember what she looks/sounds like.

I was asked to sing a song ("The Rose") last weekend at my Grandma's church. I used to go there all the time when I was a kid. I really did love it. When I got up there on stage, all I could think about was the great times with my Papa and I broke down at the end of the song. Top 5 most embarrassing moments of my life. At least some of the other people were crying too.

4 comments:

Lora said...

I'm sorry you've been in such a slump. And about the EI thing. I was really pulling for you.

Kristen said...

I felt like a real asshole when you called last weekend. I was thinking about you yesterday on the way home from work and I couldn't even remember when we said we'd connect. This weekend? Was it last Sunday? If it makes you feel better, no one is seeing or hearing from me lately, but you're the one I miss the most.

Kristen said...

Wouldn't it be funny if you had another friend named Kristen and you were totally talking about her and I was all, "I know I am awesome and too busy for you, blah, blah, blah..." It would make me giggle. Go on facebook and you'll see lots of new videos and pics from the last two weekends.

Kitten said...

Oh yes, you made me take the pictures and then you pushed me off my chair! Don't worry - I was still happy to take the pictures (when I could figure out your camera, that is) - because that is part of what I do for a living! I felt so stupid that I left my memory card sitting in my card reader though!

A nanny since 1996, I'm tired of washing nipples that aren't mine.