Hypocrite

Rachel has tagged me for a MEME, so I am trying to continue it every day until I'm done. One of them (Four Websites I Frequently Visit) I'd like to make up myself since I don't really frequent that many websites, and coming up with four websites I visit would be a little tricky. So here is mine:

Four Things I Said/Thought I'd Never Do, But Did Them Anyway

If any of you know me, then you know I am pretty stubborn. And I have done some weird and wild things and stuck to them just for the simple fact that I am that stubborn. I didn't swear for a whole year in high school just because swearing had become the thing to do. If you've read this website before, you realize just how fucking hard that was for me. I didn't go out clubbing until I was well into my twenties because that was what you were supposed to do when you turned 21. Although I love to dance and usually prefer to do that very thing whenever I go out now. But there are four major things that happened in my life that even my stubbornness couldn't control.

I Said I'd Never Drive

I've had a fear of driving almost all my teenage years as well as the first few years of my 20's. I was the typical backseat driver. I'd grip your dashboard and "Oh shit" handle so tight, there would be fingerprints. My heart would race. I'd be twitching and looking around every corner thinking every other car on the road was going to hit me. Don't get me wrong. I was concerned for YOUR safety too. "Watch out for that car!" Hell, sometimes I'd just shut my eyes until the ride was over. Because, I hated driving...Rephrase that, I hated passengering. And if you ever rode with me during those years, you probably still remember, scarred for life. You see, I've been in too many car accidents to count and many of them were before I even got behind the wheel. I seriously vowed never to get a license. But the time came in my job where I had to drive or find another place of employment. Payton needed to go to preschool and it was much too far to walk a 3 year old in 2 feet of snow. So at 21, I had my best friend Jeannette teach me to drive. It was then I had a revelation. I found it was so much better than sitting in the passenger seat without any control. I could slam on the breaks when I wanted. I could go the speed limit, or not. I could look at every intersection before going through. I felt so much safer knowing I could stop the car or speed up whenever I needed. It also helped that Jeannette was so patient and didn't really care what happened to her 10 year old car. I took the test and passed the first time. In all honesty, I believe I am a better driver because of my once apprehensive attitude. So much so that now I'm working on my road rage because I think I drive better than most. Yes, even you.

I Thought I'd Never Wear Pink

As long as I can remember, I've always loved blue...And I've always hated pink. Pink was everything I associated with frilly and girly and ditsy. You were obviously a giggling little moron if you wore pink. You had no athletic ability. You had perfect nails and a perfect blush application. And your knees never met with a tree branch. You needed a man to help you over a puddle or open a car door for you. If you wore pink, you had a boyfriend named Blaine and made your own dresses. Plus, being the only Ames girl, I was forced to wear pink at every holiday and special occasion. And then just earlier last year, I realized how nice a blond haired, fair skinned woman can look in light pink. Slowly, I started adding a bit to my wardrobe. I wouldn't say I wear pink everyday and I do still prefer blue. But I AM now known to rock pink every so often, while climbing a tree of course.

I Said I Would Never Buy A House

My parents moved us around a lot. I think I've lived in close to 20 different households. I just got to liking the carefree feeling of being able to pack up and make a new house a home. I would get antsy after about 2 years. But, when Matt and I started looking with a realtor, I think I was a little freaked out at first. It's not as if you HAVE to stay in a house you purchase, but it certainly is a bit more involved than breaking a lease. Although, it didn't take long to really enjoy the thought of living in one place for years. It always amazed me to go over to some one's house and see their baby footprints in the sidewalk or their growth charts in the closet. And I find I want that for Britain. I can't say I haven't been on Howard Hanna checking out houses online, but I think everyone does that. It's not as if we bought this house and intended on staying here for life. But we do have some home improvement plans next year to make it our own for at least a few more years.

I Thought I'd Never Get Pregnant

I'm sure you all know Britain was a surprise, but no one was surprised more than I was. I have always had problems in the womanly cycle department. I could never gauge when I would need a Tampax let alone when my own ovulation would occur. Even so, I tried to have a baby for over a year in my last relationship and never even got close to conceiving. Finally, I went to the doctor and I was diagnosed with PCOS. Heartbroken, I slowly but surely got used to the fact that fate stepped in when I became a nanny because I probably wouldn't ever have any children of my own. Then, as soon as I met Matt, one of the strangest things that has ever happened to me happened. My body was the most regular it had ever been. You could have possibly even set a calendar by me. Although, I still believed it was just a strange way of my body finally releasing all those underdeveloped eggs and Matt and I weren't always careful for that simple fact. When I read that positive pregnancy test, after tens of negative pregnancy tests before it, I knew my own little miracle had occurred. Now, here she is!

This, among some other important events, is why I will always believe in fate and karma. All of these things that I said I would never do have shaped me to be the woman I am now. And I can't say I've ever been happier with my life than this very moment. It's so nice to finally come into my own.